Dark Night Anyone?

Is this a dark night of the soul or twilight?

This is more of a dark spell than a dark night.  More like a shadow crossing over us as we transcend.  It doesn’t feel so much like being totally submerged as it does being dunked.  Ya, we’re feeling it, deeply, but we’re remembering quicker to turn on the Light and not let the effects of what we’re experiencing take root.  We’re choosing higher, so we’re falling lighter.  And it doesn’t even feel so much like we’ve fallen (except when it does), but more like we’re no longer directly standing in the sun.

What we’re facing is stifling though, and confusing, as we thought that we were only now reaching upward.  Suddenly everything we’ve carried for so long, and all that we thought we’d reconciled is on the table, once again, and it’s taken us under and to depths we didn’t know still existed. The loneliness, the abandonment, the shame, the grief, the rejection- all of the ancient stuff.  And it’s not only our own, it’s collective. It’s primordial. And it’s all coming up for review so that this time we can finally walk away free, no longer allowing it to anchor in our core and dominate our way of being.

It’s as if we’re getting ready to board a flight to our final destination and we’re running back for one final embrace, one last glance at what we’ve been and at what has owned us.  And as we run into the arms of this old-familiar, we realize that that’s not where we belong and we turn and head the other way.  We turn into a higher being as we turn on the Light and let the thoughts escape us, let the pain erode, and don’t get trapped by what we’ve known, forsaking ourselves once again.

Once we’re able to shed some light on the twilight’s agenda, we are grateful for the chance to reflect, however momentarily painful, as it gave us momentum for lift off and a vivid perspective of what we no longer desire to be.  And somehow we know this is a brief layover.  We know, on some level, this is merely a hiccup. But the turbulence of the last week has rocked us, nonetheless, to the core (and very purposely) so it could loosen up the remains of what needs to go and lighten our load.

It’s more unbearable when you’ve become more connected to the Light to scour the darkness.  It’s more difficult to dive under when you’ve soared to higher highs.  But this diving is part of the integration of heart and mind, soul and will.  And so as we evolve into heart-based beings, we are pulling up the resistance within our cores so that it can be transmuted and so that we can become more fully aligned.

The heart and the core (the chakra of will) need to be aligned in order to keep the peace.  It takes discipline to remain above the throws of the self that seeks to keep us down.  It takes a strong root in your power center to establish the strength of mind, of will, to remain vigilant in your practice of I Am-ness.

And as we are aligning, we’re getting a good taste of what we’ve been up against most directly and what we can choose to continue to partake in when we choose not to rise above.  The dark night is very much about trust, or lack thereof. And so, in this time, issues of the heart abound. We are releasing a millennium of hard-earned love, love lost, love unconditional, love unknown - all in one fell swoop, as we are offered the window of transmuting it in this mini portal of transcendence.

But we must keep in mind that though this feels like a dark night, we are not slipping behind. We are going forward. This is our twilight.  This is our just-before.

The pervasive question of the dark night is ‘how long?’ ‘How long will this last?’ “How long will I have to continue in this place of being, this place of darkness?’ The inevitable answer is- as long as you let it.  The time is now for you to find balance between creating and allowing.  Ask yourself if you need this experience any longer for your growth or if you’ve fallen for the same old tricks of what’s been.  We have to come from a place of knowing the I Am, which means not allowing ourselves to fall prey to words, thoughts, or situations that tell us differently.

What are the lies that you’ve been telling yourself? Those are the beliefs that need to go in order for you to live from a place of integrity. When you are not living from a place of integrity, you are living a half-truth. You are living in oppression of self and operating from illusion. As you consciously release these blocks, it frees you up to be clear and solid and live from that place instead. It allows you to become more aware.  Self-respect is the fruit of discipline, and a sense of dignity grows with the ability to say no to one self.  When we continue to play into the hands of what no longer serves us, we give up our peace of mind and relinquish our freedom.  We are saying to the Universe ‘I have no bearings, I simply react and respond to what is bubbling within me rather than holding tight to my knowing of what IS’.

These are the spiritual and fundamental options we are facing at this time. Align with your truth and your troubles will fade away. Find your lifeline.  Find what brings you back to that place of knowing, that place of peace, and grab on.  And each time you begin to slip into the depths reach for that rope instead.

This is about being solid in our center.  And this is why our center is the current point of focus.  The center, your core, has to do with power and trust.  And power and trust are the main components of the dark night.  If you are feeling like the depths have taken you to a place too unbearable and you feel like you can’t go on, you are right indeed.  You no longer can go on in that way.  It’s like trying to breathe under water, which is why you feel like you’re drowning.  Your truth has been too watered down by the familiars. The triggers are having their way with you and you’re realizing through the pain of the experience that living through that lens is death.

Will this be your last death before you’re reborn?  Will you reach for the light and reclaim your strength?  Will you choose compassion of self over self-berating?  Will you allow your process to unfold and your self to move forward of will you continue to dance around the truth with only momentary glimpses of illumination? The choice is yours.  How do you wish to experience it?  Dare to do it differently and the dark night will become the dawn of You Being. This is your twilight. This is your time to prepare for flight. You don’t have to be perfect to fly, you only need to align with your truth and connect with your Source.  Your spirit will do the rest.




Believe in your greatness.
You are a divine being. Live divinely, and your life will unfold in peace.

Blessing you,
~Rhonda
Awakeningthedivine.net

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